转角遇到我

I don't like it when people around me see through me so quickly. I was told not to change any of that cos its nothing bad about it. I felt better after saying it out. those who are really close really sensed something amiss. forgive me for trying to push you away. I thought I was better. have been looking forward to the weekend. push away everything just for him. didn't tell him. just want to see him. haven't really got to talk to him much the whole week. simple smses that show my concern for him the whole week. holding back everything, tearing when I sms him I 'm fine, everything that was not fine was left unsaid. I know he had a long & tiring week, that is why I try to be independent, handle everything on my own, do not want him to worry a single bit about me. Yes, I know I am being selfish. If I'm in his shoes, I wouldn't want my girlfriend to do anything hide.

I thought I was better. I finally told some of my dearies about it. They asked at the point of time where I really cannot take it. I really apprecaite them. I told her the other day when she was better, so much better. first time out of the past 2 weeks, I saw her finish one complete meal. I was relieved, and I told her my situation. That day was also my first time that I didn't cry when I talked about it. 也许她是我练习的对象。 I have been thinking when is the best time to tell him about. I really want to see him so badly. so in need of his support, the motivation that he gives me. I know and I am glad that my dearies gave me, but now, I just need his.

I know it is not his fault for making me feel this way. Things just happen at the wrong time. so happen that he is so busy this week. or maybe its fated that I have to learn to deal with all these on my own, learn to be independent again. 早知道我就一大早出去， 就不会一个人在家胡思乱想了。