I have already apologised. You said you're not angry anymore, but in fact there's more to it. You still mind and still angry despite I have explained I wasn't at the right state of mind when I said that. feeling very lousy now. Why on earth did i ever started on that topic again? I was still happily thinking and planning for your birthday. was doing window grocery shopping for the dishes that I plan to whip up for you.
why don't celebrate birthday? I cannot do it. It marks a day of your birth. I wouldn't have known you, without your birth. that is why I feel that it shouldn't be ignored. I planned so much earlier this time around, dried my brain juice to think and plan a surprise but u don't want it. I said I hated my birthday this year doesn't mean I don't wish for it to be ignored for the rest of the year.
why did we quarrel on my birthday this year? Everything around me just don't seem right after that big hit on me.
