I dread going home these days. Don't like to stay home facing, enduring ... Am I really useless at home? not of any help? or is it that I am too busy, ok lazy that is making him upset? I don't know... I can only keep quiet, walk away, keep telling myself its okay... don't think too much, but in fact I am thinking too much again. can't seem to let things go so easily although I wanted to. Kept myself busy, doing assignments, tutorials, research, with breaks in between before I ran away. Going out can make me think less. Was really happy after buying quite a lot of things. very tired from shopping for MY THINGS! yes i'm selfish, self-centered, temperamental and perhaps weird. I am so not my usual self now, and I hate it... I don't want things to be or turn out that way, but it just happen. *puzzled*
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